more on day to day struggle

i used to be a young man, of dreams and internal dialogue, that makes little sense looking back, but through determined effort i made sense to myself, and achieved little goals one by one....i don't know what the idea is of common viewpoint.... i am working or making a great idea come to life, if i can. it's frustrating... i want to start the party...today made baked goods, some kind of party food. do some work on your computer, of training you don't talk about....(maybe you have gone far and long with maths, ) and ideally you can bring good fun to the people. cold weather has been around a while, and fella, without day to work, try to stay update with whats what. says you "must make a a donation" looking through government forms to the state library, so uploaded how to knit a sock, and wiring diagram of grid tie..:) look i try to be some kind of star eh...best music you'll ever here in your life...thats just cause i kept working....say to yourself you don't know your friend, and then look around again...cars seems a little more of wit and intellect than last year and the year before...thats good.... but i'm still trying to start my career! would working, cause a fella need to learn stuff over time, would working underpaid, because playing on the street underpaid, pay off, after a year or so?, as in followers? or common sense? or would shows pay highly eventually? of course you want credibility....what are you up against?