of difficulty do the difficult work for credibility

ok so it isn't fun, it wont get you places quick, but you'll be more fulfilled with yourself....

the mental work doesn't seem to do the job, try to intellect, "i'm more than a tossing animal" you can't seem to mentally think yourself out of it

your need practical pain,

at first it was driving a finger nail, into the other hand, just behind the finger nail, seems to be one of the more annoying pains in the world...

then it was shower in your underpants

then it was slapping yourself in the face

and now i'm day to day calmness without effort